Argh

Oh, how awesome is it that today is HALLOWEEN.

I sure am celebrating it right this year by doing the SCARIEST thing ever - studying the scourge of this world, Econometrics.

Multiple linear regression analysis, dummy variables, multicollinearity, heteroscedasticity........


All the above makes me infinitely miserable. It is so disgusting I can't stop complaining.
Maths, maths, mathsssss, when will I ever rid you from my life???!!??!

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like you have loved me.

Please buy my clothes!!!!

Urgh I can't study properly. I keep thinking of the iphone!!!!!!! HELPPPPPP.


Just updated my sales journal.

I keep advertising but sadly to no avail. I've not sold anything for like 2 months already??!?!? Grrrr :(
Must go on hardcore advertising mode from now on.

I hope some kind souls will buy my clothesssss. Please please pleaseeeeeee
Contribute to my iphone fund!!!!!!

Happy

HAHAHAHAHAHA

I'M FRIENDS WITH MR MAH BOW TAN ON FB!!!!!!!!!!!!
And he's the real dude okkkkk.


Okkkkkk lame, but things like these makes me reallyyyyyyy happy ;)

In Christ Alone

This further substantiates my point that Owl City is AWESOME.
Adam Young is really really talented ;)

I love his rendition of "In Christ Alone".

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

This song is soooo meaningful and touching.
I know this is gonna be morbid sounding, but because this song holds so much meaning to me, I've decided that I want this song to be played during my funeral.

Let go

Words of wisdom coming from Ivan Vanko (Iron Man 2):

Or people, for that matter.

BB or iPhone or NONE??!

Everyone in my family has an iPhone.....
EXCEPT ME :(


I WANT A NEW PHONE TOO!!!!!!



Blackberry or iPhone????!!?

I really like the appearance of the Blackberry, but the iPhone has much more features (but it is really ugly)!!!! But then again, I already have a touch!!

But I have to pay for it myself :(
So maybe I should get NONE at all.


My brother reminded me, if I do not buy any clothes for two months, I can afford to get a new phone already.

But..... HOW CAN I GO THROUGH 2 MONTHS WITHOUT BUYING ANY CLOTHES?!?!?!!??
I will definitely be super miserable..

So, does plenty of new clothes or a new phone give me a higher utility??

With my pathetic budget line, I can only buy a new phone at the expense of less clothes. Will buying a new phone shift me to a higher indifference curve?? Will I be maximizing my utility and satisfaction???????

Arghhhhhhh. This is a very difficult decision to make.


I feel like opening a new savings account for my "blackberry/iphone fund". But whatttttt, the bank deducts $2 from the account every month if there is less than $500?!?!? WHAT KIND OF BANK DOES THIS?!?!?!?!!?? Do they not understand that not everyone has $500 to spare?? I rather store my money at home then. Moneysuckers :(

GG

I broke my ultimate combo by not going to school today for the sole purpose of studying econometrics (such an irony).

But wthhh, I woke up later than the time I would have reached home if I had gone to school.


Arghhhh. There goes my plan for the day. AGAIN.

March On

Like soldiers, march on

If we can make it through the night we'll see the sun.

Through the good times, through the bad times
Through the long days, through the hard nights

Keep on till we see the sun.


March on, march on.

Double Marginalization

OMGGGG SHINee is in Singapore today?!????
So awesome to think that somehow I am sharing the same hazy Singapore air as them. :D



I wanna see KIM KIBUM!!!!!! Pleaseeeee!!

I don't care, I AM GOING FOR THE NEXT CONCERT.


I am so sick of studying already. Instead of feeling more knowledgeable, I feel so much stupider. The notes seem to be mocking me, so incomprehensible. Yucks. I feel like I am studying for a damn maths paper. Whyyyyy so much of maths involved?!? :(

Super scared for my test on monday. I believe it is gonna bring my GPA down down down down...
I rather sit for O levels ten times than to go for that test of doom. :S

Kim Kibum

Hiiiiii, I can't believe I am filling up this space with so many pictures of some random guy.
But whatever. He is undeniably cute and HOT at the same time!!!!!

And it makes me happy by doing so!!! Teeehee :P



I ♥♥♥ HIS HAIR :^)



I kinda saved alot of his pictures into my com (stalker!!!!) Omg I am becoming like one of those crazy fans who have a folder in their computer entirely dedicated to their favourite star. Nooooooooooooo

I promise that this will be the first and last time okkkkk



So sad that he is younger than me. Is it that I am old or is he the one that is young???! Arghhhh


I am secretly contemplating on setting the picture below as my desktop wallpaper. That would be the ultimate craziness. I don't even know him. I only learnt how to recognise him today after looking at so many of his pictures. I only know that he is called Key, his real name is Kim Kibum, and that he is part of SHINee, and that he looks so awesome.

Does that make him worthy of a wallpaper status???




Omgggg, i can't decide.

Tangled up in you

Omggggg, I promise this is one of the BEST songs ever. EVERY single word is so meaningful. ♥

THIS IS GONNA BE MY WEDDING SONG ♥♥♥♥




Tangled Up In You - Staind

You're my world, the shelter from the rain
You're the pills that take away my pain
You're the light that helps me find my way
You're the words when I have nothing to say

And in this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

You're the fire that warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old
You're the shore when I am lost at sea
You're only thing that I like about me

And in this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you

How long has it been since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends and goes like this forever

In this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you, tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

Crack

Today, I did the most loserish thing ever

I googled "HOW TO CRACK AN EGG".


So embarrassing that I don't know how to crack an egg properly...
But after watching the ultimate egg cracking video on youtube,





I learnt the 4 easy steps to cracking an egg!

1. Wash your hands and hold the egg in your favourite hand, between your middle finger and thumb, resting your first finger along the egg's side.
2. With one swift decisive motion, crack the egg on a flat surface or on the edge of a bowl to make a clean horizontal crack at the side of the egg. (DON'T TAP SOFTLY!!)
3. Use both of your thumbs to separate the shells on either sides of the crack, by moving up and away from the crack.
4. Let the contents of the egg fall into the bowl and remove pieces of shell from the egg if necessary.
   

And with this, I cracked my first egg successfully (without leaving any eggshell residue!!)
Yippeeee!!!!

IMMA EGGCRACKER.

So fantastic

SO FANTASTIC~
SO ELASTIC

Fantastic, fantastic, fantastic, fantastic
Elastic, elastic, elastic, elastic

It seems like nonsense, why is it stuck in my head!?!?!???


Hello SHINee do you glitter and sparkle?? (like your name suggests)
I think you do, because I am mesmerized. I think your dance is the awesomest thing ever!






Are the two the same person??? I feel so loser that I still can't differentiate them. But omgggg, this dude (I think his name is Key or something) - HE IS CAPTIVATING. His stare and that smirk is so seductive I am spellbound. He is just soooo hot ;) But I don't like his name. Why did he call himself Key, of all names??!!!


One week after listening to my 31 Korean songs on repeat, I am a convert. Even my ringtone now is a korean song. The beat is so catchy and the dance moves are awesome. I wish I could dance like that too. Arghhhh why all the korean singers can dance so well. >:(

Again

Dieeeeeeee. I have already spent more than I did last month, and barely half the month has passed. Shopping is reallyyyyy damaging. :(

Bags

OMGGGGGGGG, I was searching practically EVERYWHERE for my monopoly deal cards. When I couldn't find it in my room, I decided to search my bags.

That's when I realised that having so many bags isn't a good thing afterall. After rummaging through my pile of bags, I finally found the cards with considerable difficulty. And I was almost sweating. I guess I'm just experiencing diminishing marginal returns and decreasing returns to scale.

I decided to draw a beautiful graph to illustrate my depressing situation.

The quantity of bags I have has definitely exceeded Q since I see my utility (happiness) decreasing as I own more bags. It is so difficult to find items that I placed in my bag and forgot about. I have to exert more effort, time and energy in searching through ALL the bags and it makes me rather angsty too.


After counting, I am appalled to discover that I have 28 bags altogether (WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY?!?!?!???). I never thought it would actually reach such an amount. Now I know why my dad keeps scolding me....

RECESS!!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOHAAAAAAAAAAA RECESS WEEK IS FINALLY HEREEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

Omg time really flies, I can't believe it has been 7 weeks since school started.

7 weeks = 1.75 months = 21 days = 315 hours of school and 84 hours of traveling



My biggest achievement for this sem is that I DID NOT SKIP A SINGLE LECTURE/TUTORIAL. I went to school EVERYDAY, and attended all lessons religiously. Is it just awesome or what??
Perhaps it is something trivial, but this is the first time in my entire life without skipping school for 1.75 months. I'm really proud of myself for that :)

Now I have developed this strong feeling of disgust and am repulsed by people who are constantly absent from school citing various reasons such as "I got bad stomachache", "I got stomach cramps", "I woke up late", "I got food poisoning", "I got dental appointment", "I couldn't wake up", "I got headache", etc....
Who knows how many of these reasons are legitimate (most likely NONE). Why don't you just say "I am LAZY to go to school, so I'm not going". Don't make up stupid excuses to cover up for your obvious lack of discipline and responsibility.

It is probably hypocritical of me to be saying all these because I am also guilty of practicing the above (but in the past!). But ever since I have learnt and seen the value and importance of attending lectures, I have discarded my bad habits. I guess it is time for you to WAKE UP.

So ironic that when I was in hall, I couldn't wake up for 8.30am lectures but now despite having to spend 2 hours traveling to school, it seems effortless. HAH. My results better improve, if not I probably won't turn up for lectures next sem already.

Going CRAZY

OMG DAMN. I am supposed to be researching on market structures and barriers to entry but I kinda did otherwise.
I never thought that I would ever be listening to korean songs willingly. But I just spent 1 hour watching korean mvs and now I'm afraid I am ADDICTED.


How come the dudes all look so mesmerizing one??!! Did they all put on makeup or do plastic surgery or something??


I must have dismissed korean singers far too early. I wonder how come I could not see the beauty and appreciate korean music (guys) till NOW. But it is never too late heeee :)

Now I know why so many people are crazy over them. They ALL look soooo good!!! Wait till I learn how to differentiate the dudes (why do they look like clones!!!) and pick the best looking one and he will replace Dan Humphrey already. OMGGGG BUT HOW TO CHOOSE??!! Its like trying to pick out the cutest hamster in a pet shop. Almost impossible.


I wonder if I am a guy, would I have hair as nice as theirs?? Omg I can't stop admiring their hair, I think its nicer than mine I am jealous.

RING DING DONG

LOL I think this is the funniest music video EVER.

OMG I totally can't stand the "RING DING DONG RING DING DONG" part.
WHAT KIND OF DANCE ARE THEY DOING??!?!?!!!

IT IS HILARIOUS.




ARGHHHHH SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM BEGINNING TO LIKE KOREAN SONGS.

THIS IS JUST SOOOOO WRONG.

Sleep vs Weight

Saw this on tv just now,

People who sleep less than 4 hours a day have a 73% chance higher of gaining weight.

Is the reason why I can't seem to gain weight because I sleep TOO much???!


But on hindsight, how can anyone sleep less than 10 hours, let alone less than 4 hours?????
ARE THEY EVEN HUMAN??!!

Finally something with pictures!

Omg. IT IS BACK! With a vengeance.

After weeks of abstinence and painfully suppressing my urges, I crumbled and transformed into Darth Vader.
(But I still must give myself some credit for not buying anything for this long!!!:)


With a mindset of a limitless spending power, I walked into F21 and triumphantly emerged with these:




That place is full really of evil!!!! How come they have so many pretty accessories that even after narrowing down my choices after careful elimination, I still end up buying so much!!!! I should really avoid going there already. I should not be going to shopping centres actually (danger zone!!!).

Subsequently, I also bought a pair of new shoes (there was 20% discount, how could i resist!!!!). Despite my dislike for wearing shoes, I still keep buying them!!! Why must shoes look so nice and alluring!!!!! Must kick my bad habit of wearing slippers/sandals everyday already...



Anyway, today I watched one of the WORST movies ever.

I left feeling angry with myself for watching this movie. What a waste of time!!!! I am simply appalled at how lousy and boring the show is. It was putting me to sleep and I felt like leaving the cinema. Its a freaking waste of money!!!! It is supposed to be a comedy, but how come I didn't find it funny at all!!!? I don't remember laughing at all actually. I don't understand how can the other people in the cinema laugh uncontrollably when I simply feel like rolling my eyes. Hmmm maybe it is just me (like how I find HIMYM boring too). :(


The severe degree of boringness of "The Other Guys" has led it to join the league of the "Most Horrible Movies EVER".


Epic Movie, The Benchwarmers, and Sex and the City 2 - NOTHING can be worse than that.



Given a choice between Barney and the above, I would choose Barney without hesitation.


Hehehehe:)

I WANT DOUBLE EYELIDS.

I'm been constantly staring at people's eyes recently. And I notice that most of them are blessed with double eyelids!!!! That's why their eyes are so nice!!!!!

Hmpf. I am determined to "create" my own set of double eyelids. TODAY.

Death

"At this moment of the final parting, my heart is heavy with sorrow and grief.” -MM Lee


OMGGGGGG it makes me so depressed just reading this. It is so tragic. It must really be difficult losing someone so close, someone whom he spent 63 years with.

It made me ponder and think about the issues surrounding death.
It is the most heartbreaking, cruel, depressing, melancholic thing that one can ever experience - losing someone they love dearly.


This begets the question:
Why must there be DEATH in this world?!?!?!?!!!

I guess the main reason is so that the earth would not be overcrowded and teeming with people. Death helps to eliminate people to make space for newborn babies. It is understandable if murderers, rapists, smokers have to be gotten rid of (they deserve it actually). But what about the other good people in this world???!! WHY DO THEY HAVE TO DIE???!!!! What about hamsters and other small cute animals, why can't they live forever?!!!?


I hate it that death creates a PERMANENT separation between the living and the dead. I really wish that there was a way that I could contact the dead like right now (but not with the help of a freaky medium). I want to create this spooky phone that allows me to call the 'departed' (I would call it "Dead-Line").

I wanna call my mum and talk to her. I can think of countless things to say to her. I want to call her "mummy" and tell her about my life and my problems. I want to ask her - was she as skinny as me when she was my age?? I want her to scold me for my messy room, my bad shopping habits, my laziness and procrastination. I want her nag at me to bathe, to sleep, to study. I REALLY NEED SOME FORM OF SCOLDING + NAGGING (my dad is just horrible at it). I want her to discipline my life (which is so lacking currently).

I don't mind not being able to see her, but being able to just hear her voice again would make me really happy. I am actually ashamed to admit that I can't remember how she sounds like anymore. I think its just really really sad.


I guess my ultimate wish is that there could be just ONE day that she will return and we can spend time together again. I JUST ASK FOR ONE DAY!!! I want to show her how much Tampines Mall has changed, and bring her shopping at Orchard Road. I want to show her my life, and let her know how much she has missed.

I wonder...will she be able to recognise me? Is the 'me' now somebody that she wanted me to be? How different would I be if she was still around? Will she be happy with the life I am leading now? Will she be proud or disappointed in me?? I want to know - how similar am I to her? Did I inherit my love of shopping from her? Does she love shopping as much as I do? How much clothes, shoes, and bags did she own? Would she approve of my choices of clothes, shoes and bags? Would we have been able to share clothes??


I will never know the answers for sure, as I know that the day will never come, despite me desperately wishing that it would. But I'm sure it would be awesome to spend a day with her. I want to hug her so badly, and tell her how much I miss her. I want to be there when it is time to say goodbye.

So much time has passed that many memories of her has become just a distant, vague memory (hate it that I have bad memory!!!). I wanna relive the moments spent with her, and relish it.


But I am comforted to know for a fact that she is in a much better place, full of happiness and free from all suffering. She is in the presence of God and I can't think of anywhere better than that to be in than that :) I mean, after living in this shitty world for almost 20 years, I can't wait to go heaven too.




On another note, I am feeling extremely full right now and I don't know why (I have not even finished my dinner!!!). My skirt is sooooo freaking tight right now that it is so difficult to breathe. Just one macaroni more and I think my skirt will burst in the seams.

I AM GETTING FAT. OMG.

I want more fats. But why are all the fats appearing at the wrong places??!! :(

TGIW

I ♥ WEDNESDAYS .

R.I.P, little Passionfruit

Omg I am sad, freaking sad right now. (but not as sad as when I heard that Mrs Lee died)

One of my hammies died!!!!!!
*SOBSSSSSSS*

Such a sad, violent death. Its head almost got ripped off, the poor little thing. Its really hard to imagine how violent one hamster can be to another.

I mean, it looks SO INCREDIBLY CUTE and harmless. How it is possible that it is capable of attacking and inflicting such fatal damage unto a fellow hammie??!!! It is just unfathomable.


I'm in mourning mode now. It has not been even been 2 days and my hammie died :(

Gloomy gloomy tuesday speaks of impending doom.

Like dynamite

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying ay-oh, gotta LET GO.

Children's Day

It's Children's Day today......

It makes me feel OLD :(

Its like a cruel reminder that I am not a kid anymore.
I don't like this day at all. Hmpf.