August

Today is the last day of July, which means that tomorrow would be the first day of August...

Time really flies!

One month have zoomed by so fast, and its one more month before school resumes.
I've been on "holiday" for so long that I think I have forgotten how studying actually feels like.

I think July has been an exceptionally fufilling month for me!
Giving tuition, taking up weird jobs, snoozing around at home, SHOPPING....

I never thought that I would enjoy teaching, but I realised that I actually do. The boys are so cute (hmm, maybe its not the right word to use, but the sec2 kid is really really cute!), and I have a newfound penchant for solving mathematical problems.
Giving tuition isn't like a 'job' to me, I actually look forward to tuition lessons every week haha. (Though I secretly wonder whether they also look forward to tuition too)

I've been working so much this holiday that I amaze myself. Although I have been earning a meagre income for myself, my wealth has not seemed to have increased.
I guess I have been spending far too much...

6 tops, 4 bags, 2 shoes

Absoultely appalling!!!


But,
AUGUST

Shall be a month of CHANGE for me.
A revolution.

Firstly, to curb and control my spending.
I know I have always been saying that I want to do this all the time, but do otherwise. I am going to try my best this August...


And more importantly,
I am getting baptized tomorrow!!!

I really like my baptism date. 1st August - the first day of a fresh new month,
A new beginning, a new creation :)


Also, August marks the start of an exciting new journey for me. Something I never thought I would have the capacity and capability to achieve.
I'm excited yet nervous at the same time... :Z

It is my first time, and I am unsure about many things.
Ironic feelings of anticipation and apprehension are overwhelming me. But i'm just putting my trust in God that he will see me through.

Responsibilities, responsibilities - something I would say is not my forte
Thinking about it makes me kinda "jumpy".

But I'm really excited to meet the girls!!!!!!!! ;)

Last for July

Haha something is really wrong with me!!!!

I can't stop buying things!!!!


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Bought 3 belts of different colours. My rationale: Cheap lor, just buy, I surely will have some use for it.


ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDD,
I found my Longchamp backpack!!!!!!!
So happy :DDDDDDDD

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Imma happy girl with all these items!
No more for the month of August. Really

Yeah, REALLY.

Grown up

I've been waking up at 9am EVERY SINGLE DAY for the past week.

No, not because I have to.
But because I just CAN'T seem to sleep past 10am.

And I have been sleeping at 1-3am every night.
That means that I only have 6-8 hours of sleep at night.

This is so unlike me!!!!! Totally not me at all!!!

Wth, what happened to my requirement of >10 hours of sleep every night?!?!?
When I have all the time in the world to achieve that, my body refuses to let me do so.


I have come to this conclusion:
I have grown up.

I have become like my dad, who only needs 6-8 of sleep.
Anymore than that, he would wake up automatically.

Oh, and when I wake up at 9am, I would read The Straits Times.
I used to think that it is boring (besides the life section), something that only people like my dad enjoy.
But now, I love to read it. I read the whole freaking stack.

Should I be happy or what?
I'm starting to adopt the habits of an "adult".
Am I all grown up now?????!!


But ohmannnnnnn, I really miss waking up in the afternoon...

Obsession

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I know, it looks bad. Really really bad.
It reflects badly on me, my self control, and especially my bank account.

But..........
I sold some stuff!!! Not much, but at least it negates some of the damage done.

I'm like a STICK!!!!!!!!!

Omg, I never knew my skinniness was THAT BAD.

I am aware of my weight (or rather lack of it). But it has come to my attention that it is wayyyyyyyyy abnormal!!!

I was looking at my photos when I came across one that totally disgusted me.






I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING STICK!!!!!!!!!
WTH, I'M THINNER THAN THE TREE TRUNK BEHIND ME.

Ewwww!!! Gross to the infinite infinity!

If I were to wear some torn, tattered and dirty clothes, and take the picture in india,
I will definitely look like a malnutritioned, malnourished kid.

Those kids, have one meal a day or probably even lesser. But I have 3 or more meals a day!!
Why do I look like one of them??!


Then it made me think:
Am I just skin and bones????

Yucks!!!!!

Its so weird that I suddenly realised the gravity of this situation.
So I look like that in real life?? Omg that is really disgusting.
I look at my reflection everyday, but never felt that my size was really a huge problem.


But now it is.


Although that photo was taken a year ago, I don't think I look bigger than that now.
Compounded with my recent appetitite problems, I would have to think that I am losing weight.

Argh. Eating has become such a chore!
Its no longer "eat to fill my stomach" because my stomach seems to always feel full.
No longer is it "eat because I love to eat" because I don't love to eat anymore.

Now, it is "eat because you need to gain weight" and I have to force myself to finish my food.


Is my current weight (size) my fault because I didn't eat enough,
or is it a biological problem - high metabolism, small bones??!

Argh.
NEED. TO. DO. SOMETHING. ABOUT. IT.

But what? Besides eating, I don't know what else to do...
See a doctor? Hmmmmmmmmmm

Bored

It's been a day of staying at home and being unemployed but I am bored already.

I used to enjoy slacking around and enjoy my "unemployment benefits".
I can surf the internet endlessly and not be bored at all. I can watch videos for days, entirely entertained.

But today, today is the day that I realised how BORING my computer is. Even blogshopping bores me.

I'm just a boring bored person experiencing the bordest boredom ever.
Crisis.

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HOHOHOHOHOHOHHOHO

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA I AM ON A ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm selling so many freaking items and its making me so haaaaaappyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!! (despite selling most at a loss)

But having more liquidable assets is definitely 1000000000000x better than having stupid pieces of cloth hanging in the closet, waiting to be disintegrated.

Must quit telling myself that I should keep everything, that I will find some day / occasion to wear them.
Cos most of the time, that day NEVER comes!!!!

Better to get rid of them asap before it depreciates and is worth less than rags.







There's more at bigbugbug.livejournal.com :)

I'm clearing my wardrobe a bit at a time.
A difference will be seen in my account balance - I LIKEEEE!

I wanna be a Billionaire, so FREAKING badddddddd

I want to buy all these!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!











Argh. They say sky's the limit, but I say money is the limit.

Random

Haha, I think that I'm having this blogging bug tonight.

I guess this is one of the best ways to improve, if not maintain my standard of English.
In giving tuition, I realised how much my English has deteriorated when I find it difficult to find synonyms or explain some words.

Omg, even my way of writing now disgusts me. I find it rather difficult now to put my thoughts down coherently in words and it scares me.

I used to think that my English was brilliant, and teaching English was something I could do easily. But strangely now I dread to teach my tutee English cos I find it so tough to teach and explain the language!!! Especially comprehension and summary - I feel like it is draining the life out of me...


I think my tuition kid is cute!!!! :)
I had tuition with the sec 2 kid today and we were doing science. The question was on the topic forces.
Something like: Mary's schoolbag is so heavy that the thin strap of the bag is cutting into her skin, hurting her. What should she do?

Haha I found it really amusing that his suggestion was for Mary to buy a new bag.
True, true. I wish this answer can really be accepted cos I really like it!

And he laughs at the smallest things. I wonder whether I was like that when I was 14.
Omg, it seems like a superrrrrrr long time ago.
Giving tuition makes me feel OLD! :(

Just yesterday I was going through past year olevel chemistry questions. One of them was from 2006 - the year I took Olevels!!!!!
THAT WAS FOUR YEARS AGO!!!!!!!!!!

I told my tutee that and suddenly felt a tinge of regret. He must be thinking that I am freaking old!!!!!!!!!!!! (that would what I would be thinking if I were him)
Even if he doesn't think so, I think that I am really old. It depresses me. :(

Sigh.

Operation Saving

Dieeeeeee. When I am not online shopping, I am real-life shopping.
This disease of mine is really sucking the life out of my bank account. First, the numbers start dwindling and then the digits start to drop, one at a time. Soon, it will come to a point when there is nothing to squeeze out of it anymore. Argh.

Have to stop that from happening!!!
Operation Saving is now on!!!!!!!!!!!

I promised myself not to leave the house next week. And even if I do go out (only for important matters), I can only spend $10 maxxxxxx.
Atm card will be held in a classified location for an undetermined amount of time.
Ibanking device will be in the possession of my dad, who is fully capable of guarding it.

With all these measures put in place, I hope that Operation Saving will be a success!

The perils of being skinny

Urghhhhh. I don't understand why people would die to be skinny, when I am dying to gain weight in order to look normal.
Don't these people know the pains and sufferings of being skinny???

Firstly, being skinny is UGLY. Like super duper disgustingly ugly.
You look like a stick, and being compared to a bamboo / french fries is an everyday phenomena. Being skinny also makes you look weak and fragile, your forehead seems be labelled with "handle with care".
Omg, even the way the word looks is ugly. Any word has one s, one k, one i, two n's and a y is definitely a horrible word. It should be deemed as vulgar!!

The word "skinny" is also very offensive. The term itself isn't flattering at all! Calling skinny girls skinny is akin to calling a fat girl fat, in her face.
People do that all the time, thinking that skinny people do not mind being called skinny. I secretly wish to punch anyone who mentions that to me. I already know how I look, thanks to the invention called a mirror, hence I don't need you to remind me about something I already know!!!
If "fat" is a politically incorrect and insensitive term, "skinny" should also be under the same category. Both words are equally unpleasant and offensive.

The worst thing about being skinny is that it is super difficult to find clothes that fit and flatter you. When shops don't sell clothes your size, and you end up buying clothes too loose, that drowns and overwhelm es you. Tight fitting clothes makes you look even skinnier, which is something so unnecessary.
Being skinny doesn't mean you will look better and can wear all kinds of clothes!!!!!!

If anyone reading this wishes to be skinny, please don't.
I have lived an existence of skinniness, it certainly sucks.

I need help, to gain weight, healthily.
Urghhhhh. I guess everyone has weight problems. Even skinny people.


Can I buy a fat suit or something???
Maybe not really a FAT suit but some suit to make me look bigger in size?!!
Hahahaha i think that'd be cool!!! :)

State Bank of India

Telok Banglah & Turban Gardens - places where Nidhis are in abundance.

Ps: What's with all indian men having mustaches? Is it a sweeping statement? Really interesting i wanna know why!!

Hopefully hard work does pay off

I am impressed.

That 17 year old dude is so hardworking that I feel soooo ashamed.

And I found out how stupid and careless I am. Must prepare more so that I won't be make so many mistakes. Arghhhhh. Tomorrow will be a better day!

I really hope he can make it to poly! :)

Stupid

Omg, I think I did the stupidest thing ever today:

I confidently took the wrong bus home today and almost got lost. I mistook 291 for 29, and had to walk back home from like some weird place in Tampines.

I think I walked about half of Tampines already?!?

I feel so retarded. Stop being so blur Amelia!!!!!!!!!!