I've been earning my keep for the past week, but the feeling isn't awesome.
I thought I'd feel accomplished or something. But I don't.
My dad just celebrated his 50th birthday yesterday.
Its supposed to be a happy occasion celebrating birthdays. But it kinda makes me sad just thinking of it.
Am I weird or something??!
It really dawned on me that my dad, my awesome and the best dad ever in this world, the one who is always there, supporting me throughout all these years - is growing old....
The jet black hair my dad once had is now greying.
All these years, I've never really thought about the fact that like me, my dad is also aging. Very quickly.
I've never thought about the day where I see his hair become grey. As far as I remember I've always known my dad to have black hair.
Its an obvious sign that he is getting old.
After all these years that he has been providing for us, it will soon be my turn to provide for him.
I really fear for that day.
Not that I am unwilling to provide for him, but I am scared that I will be unable to provide the BEST for him, like what he has done for us.
As age catches up, the clock is ticking. Being the pessimist that I am, I am terribly afraid that I will lose him.
I just hate it when such thoughts come into my mind. I know deep in my heart the day will come, but I just don't want it to happen!!!!!!!!
I can do nothing but treasure every moment that I spend with him...
I hate to admit it, but I have been taking my dad for granted.
Because of the stable environment that he has given us, money isn't really an issue. I can always rely on my dad for monetary support, be it for school, food, transport or whatever. He readily hands me money whenever I am in need.
I guess he has given me too much money already. There stems my penchant or rather "obsession" of buying stuff. Somewhat useless items when I look back upon the things that I have bought.
One good example is this stupid blog. I bet in a few years or maybe even months time, I will hate almost all the clothes I bought. Even now, I already regret buying some of these items.
My dad my be my pillar of support now, but nothing is forever.
One day, his shoulders will get tired and it would be my turn to carry his weight.
Even though I have a job right now, being the useless frivalous bum that I am, I think the money will be squandered away easily at the rate that I am spending.
How am I possibly going to take care of my dad like that??!?!?!
As unwilling as I am, I have to grow up. I'm a kid no more. >:(
Sucks growing up.
There's so much more to life than amassing possessions.
After much pondering about my life, all thanks to the boring job that gives me so much free time,
I've come to the conclusion that my life is in need of some serious renovation.
Despite how these 19 plus years of my life turned out, I am still very grateful for my dad.
Everything I am today, everything that I have, I guess I owe it to my dad.
My character, my education, my license..............
He who supported, sponsored, guided, and never gave up on me. Especially in my driving where it took 3 tries for me to get my license, it cost alot of money, but my dad just never gave up on me.
I really admire him. For who he is and all he has done.
If I am going to be anything in future, I want to be just like my dad.
